Not feeling so great today. My sleep apnea is back and I'm pissed. I feel like I have to work extra hard to get this stupid weight off me. I gained 10 pounds since christmas. And now I'm snoring. Well, not me! I won't gain anymore! I was on the eliptical machine for 5 miles. It took 1 hour and then I proceeded to work with weights and of course stomach work too. I am determined. I find that I do not have as much patience when I feel like crap. Shane is doing wonderfully. However I know that that can change on a dime. I can't try to get comfortable ever. Because as soon as I think it's better he pulls the rug out from under me! I guess I've become more pessimistic than positive. He's getting pretty snotty when he wants to be. Doing well in school and pretty obnoxious at home. Ugh! Can I ever just feel like I'm on solid ground!!??? I need to work on my gratitude. My relationship with my husband is strained right now. He annoys me all the time lately. I feel like I'm shoveling sh## against the tide. Everything I try to do I get blocked. Or when I ask him to do something he doesn't get to it until I harp on him for weeks and sometimes months. I'm feeling guilty, ugly and old. nuff said.