Dear Journal,
The support group I was joining for 6 weeks ended today. We have to grade our journey since we started. We fill out a question and answer and sealed in the envelope address to us. The facilitator told us they are going to send it to us a year from now. It will be a surprised to receive the letter and will be amazed how far we have come to our journey. So far at this moment I still can't believe that my husband is gone. I felt like there is no way he is gone forever and not coming back. There is some moment I forget about the incident and then later it will come back again. I am guilty to smile because after the laughter there is pain in my heart still when I think about myself that I don't have anymore someone that will take care of me financially, emotionally and etc. He was my bestfriend, my lover, my soulmate and etc. Please God give my husband the power to help me with everything. I know he is now a spirit. I know you are God Please do this just like what you did to Moses, you gave him power to do miracle things. Talk to you again soon.
The support group I was joining for 6 weeks ended today. We have to grade our journey since we started. We fill out a question and answer and sealed in the envelope address to us. The facilitator told us they are going to send it to us a year from now. It will be a surprised to receive the letter and will be amazed how far we have come to our journey. So far at this moment I still can't believe that my husband is gone. I felt like there is no way he is gone forever and not coming back. There is some moment I forget about the incident and then later it will come back again. I am guilty to smile because after the laughter there is pain in my heart still when I think about myself that I don't have anymore someone that will take care of me financially, emotionally and etc. He was my bestfriend, my lover, my soulmate and etc. Please God give my husband the power to help me with everything. I know he is now a spirit. I know you are God Please do this just like what you did to Moses, you gave him power to do miracle things. Talk to you again soon.
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I read your journal and I feel the same way Tigersocks. It\'s been 9 months but after 30 years with someone it is so hard, so. I am so lost without him. I still cry. I hate being home alone. I drive and cry just to get out. I talk to him, I get mad at him and yell at him for leaving me. I feel your pain. I pray for God to let him guide me to. I think he has helped me in the past 9 months in some ways. I feel him sometimes around me. Oh how are we ever going to be happy again. My wish for us. Happiness. Good luck. (((Hugs))) Linda
thank you Linda ....we are going to the same journey
I thought I am crazy! I am glad that someone went the same as I am