Catching Up

Tuesday, March 24, 2009 – 9:35 A.M.  Not very many things have been going on in my life during the past week, so I have not been online very much. This might also be a way of my avoiding looking at my own problems and trying to solve them. Sometimes I feel as though I need a break or else I will go crazier than I already am.   There seems to be a truce of sorts between my brother and me. Since receiving his last e-mail in which he denied saying that he was ashamed to be seen with me in public, I have not had any desire to have much contact with him. Doing that has brought a certain amount of peace to my life, which I needed.   Last Friday I went to see my doctor again. As it turned out (no surprise here), I have another UTI. Arrangements have now been made for me to see a urologist next Tuesday. My doctor's office is supposedly faxing several copies of lab reports to him this week, and I was told of certain tests that the urologist will be giving me. I am hopeful that he will be able to find something to help me because my own doctor has said that he has become perplexed with my situation.   After the examination by my doctor, he had one of his nurses take a specimen from me to see whether I did have a UTI. My doctor likes things done a certain way, and I tried telling the nurse she was doing it wrong, but of course, patients seem to know nothing at all, so she wound up doing it her way and contaminating the specimen in the process.   They also took some blood from me for various tests. I got the result of that yesterday and everything turned out well. That did not solve my overall problem, but at least it ruled out a few things.   I spent most of the weekend getting a little extra rest, watching a couple of videos, and filling out several medical forms that I will take with me when I see my urologist.   Tomorrow afternoon, I am seeing my psychologist, and Thursday I am waiting here for someone from the phone company to come and install another computer modem that will give me a faster DSL connection.   Sometime during this week, or next, I need to start writing on my PTSD journal again. I believe that I am nearing the end of what I need to write in it. Since it contains over one hundred journal entries, I really feel a need to bring it to completion.