This and That

Thursday, January 8, 2008 – 7:05 P.M. I am using some new software, which my brother gave me as part of our financial settlement. It is called Dragon NaturallySpeaking version 10. I dictate whatever I want into a microphone, and whatever I say is printed on screen automatically. This is the first time I have actually been able to get it up and running.   There have been a few, although not too many, things that have been happening in my life since I last wrote a journal entry. I better try and write about a few of them before I forget everything.   I went to get more physical therapy at the clinic this week. While I was there, I heard the receptionist tell someone else that they were discontinuing using the pool for any therapy. I guess with all the budget cuts, they have to cut back somewhere. I would have liked for them to cut something else out of the budget, rather than this, but I got no vote in the matter.   Yesterday, I went to see my psychologist. I told her that I did not understand why my brother and his wife want to send me on so many trips. She asked if I thought it might be love. I said yes, but I am not sure that I really meant it.   We somehow managed to get on the topic of sexual abuse. I told her that I knew I had to discuss mine sooner later, but that I did not think I was ready during that day, and that I still had a feeling of shame and embarrassment because of what had happened to me   She told me that I would feel better after I got rid of some secrets I have been keeping deep inside me. I finally told her that I needed to process some of the things she was telling me, and then talk to her about it next week.   I am going to see my psychiatrist tomorrow morning. He is the person who prescribes most of my medicine for me.