Tuesday, July 01, 2008 – 10:00 A.M.   I am seeing my physical therapist this Thursday, and my doctor on Friday, July 11, both of which are good since my pain has increased along with the area it covers. The Percocet helps, but I do not want to be on narcotics for the rest of my life.   Tomorrow afternoon, I am seeing my psychologist. I still need to talk with her about more of the sexual abuse I had. It is not a pleasant topic, but one that I cannot let go of until I feel better about myself. I need to try and understand why my abusers treated me as they did, and why I still feel as though I brought it all upon myself. I think I cooperated with them in order to survive, but did that make me crazy in the process?   There are many DS friends I need to contact, but am unable to do so because of the pain I am having. I will try catching up with everyone ASAP.   Quotes for Success:   “Success is a state of mind. If you want success, start thinking of yourself as a success.”   Dr. Joyce Brothers