Friday, May 23, 2008 -- 11:05 A.M.   Physically speaking, I seem to be feeling better today. With the exception of my back, much of my pain has decreased a lot.   I am finally beginning to get some much-needed sleep. I do not know how I ever made it through the days and nights without it. I am trying to change my sleeping routine by turning the TV off earlier. That gives me an extra hour or two of sleep in the morning.   Emotionally speaking, I feel as though I am at rock bottom. Being at DS has been wonderful for me. I have gotten a lot of help through my friends here.   I am beginning to wonder if it is time for me to leave. I realize that I am still carrying a lot of baggage around with me, but I do not know how to get rid of it. There is no easy answer, and I feel a need to get help in making this decision.   This is a dilemma for me. If I leave, there is not much chance of my getting any help elsewhere. If I stay, I do not know what to do, or where to go, from here. I feel as though I am stuck in a rowboat without any oars.   Quotes for Success: “Yielding is sometimes the best way of succeeding.”   Anonymous