Thursday, April 24, 2008 -- 9:20 AM   I am not feeling very good this morning -- either physically or mentally. I did manage to get a good night's sleep, and woke up automatically at seven o'clock. One of my CNAs arrived at 7:30, which is half an hour early. At least that helped make up for the three days she was late this week. She is fairly new to the job, and I am trying to give her some extra leeway.   When I first got up today, I was feeling good. After an hour, the pain in my back hit me with a vengeance. I was going to try and stick it out, but remembered that my doctor said if I was having pain, to take the medication. I considered the fact that I am going to physical therapy later this morning, and finally decided that I should take the medication.   My mood has definitely decreased, although I'm not quite sure how it could get any worse. I do not feel like seeing anyone, going anywhere, or doing anything. All I really want to do is crawl into a hole and stay there forever. That is not a practical solution.   I saw my psychologist yesterday and told her that I decided to get a dog. She actually seemed happier than I felt. I called my sister and told her the same thing. I also asked her if she would go to the agency with me next week, to which she said yes. After thinking about it for most of last night, I decided it might be best for me to go alone.   There are certain reasons why I want to have the dog, and I do not want my sister to hear all of them. Added to that is the fact that she wanted me to get a small dog, which is completely opposite of what I want. Since I am using a wheelchair, it would not be easy for me to reach down to the floor when wanting to touch a small dog, whereas a large dog could actually stand right next to me and I would have no trouble reaching it. Tomorrow I am going to call the agency and make an appointment to go see them sometime next week.   During the past couple of weeks, I have been updating my goals on Daily Strength just once a week. There are so many of them for me to keep track of, that I just feel it would be better, and less time-consuming, for me to do it this way.   Quotes for Success:   “Be self-reliant and your success is assured.”   Anonymous