I have always hated myself for being physically disabled.  Although I had nothing to do with the way I was born, the anger still lies within me.  I am hoping to work through this with my psychologist. Throughout a large part of my life, I have been sexually abused and raped repeatedly.  It has left me with feelings of guilt, shame, embarrassment, and anger.  This was not something I wanted to happen, but it was forced upon me by sick, and perverted animals.  They left deep scars within me, which others cannot see. I will carry them with me forever. Their actions have made me frightened to be around "normal" people.  I have many fears that other people will hurt me in this manner again. Despite everything that has happened to me, I am trying to look beyond that, and to see that there are good, kind, and loving people in this world.  I really need to believe this, so that I can start making some good friends in my life.  I must learn to trust people because I know that not every person is evil.  With help from my friends here at Daily Strength, some family members, plus mental health therapists, I know that I can achieve this.  It may take a long time, but I will succeed!