1:55 PM – M.S.T.   This afternoon I am tired, discouraged, and depressed.  I just seem to have a large dissatisfaction with my life and the way it is going.  My mood has slipped way down overnight.   Life no longer seems enjoyable, and my desire to go on living has decreased dramatically.  That does not mean that I am going to try and kill myself.  I have given that option only a passing glance.  I saw it and kept on going.   I feel as though I have been abandoned again.  (I have not written about any of those feelings and situations yet.)  The loneliness I feel is causing me a great deal of emotional pain.  I hurt so much inside that I frequently have times when I want to find ways in which to cause myself a physical injury.  I only know of a few ways of doing this.  Thankfully, I have not taken any action on them.   I will be glad when today is over.