I have decided to give myself a Gold Star tonight.  My neighbor from across the street -- who used to sell me drugs -- came to see me.  He wanted to know if I was ready to buy some more crack cocaine from him.  I told him NO!  I said that I was entirely clean, and intended to stay that way.  He said that I had been here before, and had always gone back to the drugs.  That may have been, but that is not the way it is going to be now.   That is the reason that I am giving myself a Gold Star.  I have regained enough self-confidence that I was able to say NO and mean it.  I am not going to give in again if there is any way I can possibly avoid it.  I fully intend to stick by my guns!