During the past week, I have been trying to decide on how to improve my life.  In order to do this I have decided that it will be necessary to create new goals for myself.  Setting these goals is not the final answer -- I must carry them out.   The following goals are ones that I have set for myself with the intention of creating a new and better life for myself: Stop Using Crack Cocaine This illegal drug has caused me nothing but problems.  In the past eleven years, I have lost my home and almost everything of any value to me, including a good reputation within my community.  There have even been times when various members of my family have refused to have anything to do with me.   I have been to rehab centers twice, but they did not stop me from using drugs.  I even joined Narcotics Anonymous, but this, too, did not help me.   For nearly two years, I have been in various group therapy classes at a mental health clinic.  Although attending almost all sessions required of me, I have continued to have drug relapses.   I need to continue taking part in the group therapy classes, and doing whatever the therapists tell me to do in order to stop using drugs.  If I do not do this, I believe that sooner or later these drugs will kill me.   Learn to like Myself When I was growing up I learned to hate myself do to a number of things.  I became ashamed of the sexual abuse I underwent, and for some reason I did not clearly understand, I even went so far as to blame myself for causing some of this.   I also hate myself because of having a physical disability, even though I have no control over this.  I do not feel comfortable going out in public and having people see me using a wheelchair.   I need to continue seeing my therapists in an effort to change my negative feelings towards myself.   Start Going out More I am extremely uncomfortable when leaving my apartment and going anywhere.  I have developed a fear of being away from home, and going out in public.   I somehow need to force myself to go out now and then, and have decided to try and do this beginning with at least leaving home one day a week, and increasing this to two days a week within a reasonable number of months. Make New Friends Being alone so often is contributing to my feelings of depression.  I need to go out much more, meet new people, and do whatever is necessary to make new friends.   Stop Planning to Kill Myself  When I get extremely depressed, I get to the point where I want to kill myself.  I actually begin to plan ways to do this.I must stop this negative thinking, and somehow learn how to be happier with my life.  Suicide is not the answer.