This has not been one of my better days. I have a lot of things on my mind and feel that I am under a lot of pressure and stress. I have something that needs to be done almost every day of the coming week. I am so tired and worn out that I do not feel like doing anything. Tonight I am going to watch a video and then try to get a good night's sleep. My energy level has decreased so much that I am not even sure I have the strength to start the DVD. During the next few days, I need to make a decision as to whether I am going to continue making entries on the PTSD board. I am no longer sure if writing there -- or even here -- (about my sexual abuse) is what I should be doing. I am confused tonight and do not know what is right from wrong. Quotes of Attitude: “Life at any time can become difficult: life at any time can become easy. It all depends upon how one adjusts oneself to life.” Morarji Desai
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Could it be that since you posted your journal about your abuse, it\'s not as frightening to you now (the outcome) and you\'re in the zone of feeling like there\'s nothing more to say. And the outcome you thought would happen didn\'t, so there\'s this place where there should have been fireworks or something, and there aren\'t. Except that people do still care about you, so there should still be a warm glow. And THAT should never go away.
Weeble hugs... And Mojo.
You may be right to a certain extent. However, more happened after the point at which I stopped writing. I do not feel as though I can say anything else for the time being. Too many things are occurring here at home, which are causing me extreme and undue stress. I am angry and at that place where I do not want to do anything or to see and talk with anyone! I do feel that there are people here on DS who care about me, but as far as anyone else is concerned, I have serious doubts about their true feelings toward me.