Last night I read several journal entries along with the comments that followed them.  They concerned people who wrote on me Depression Community boards, and some of the threats they had made to commit suicide.  It was felt that many of these people were merely trying to get attention or to have pity-parties.   I have always been overly sensitive, and because of this, I took what was said personally.  Some of my friends here pointed out that this was not directed at me.  I should have known better, but there are times when I speak before I do much thinking.  Because of this, I want to apologize to all of those were offended by my remarks.  My friends and supporters have been with me since the first day I became a member of DS.  I would never do anything intentionally to hurt them.   My life has been a chaotic mess for several months; in spite my best efforts to get it in some type of control.  I keep thinking that once the current problems are solved, I will no longer have anything about which to worry.  Deep inside me, I know that is a fallacy.  I am a very complex person and I have many unresolved issues.   Trying to prioritize my problems has not worked thus far.  Once one thing is worked out, there seems to be a cluster of new problems that arrive at the same time.  It is extremely hard for me to work with this.  I become frustrated, depressed, and sometimes angry.  I do the best I can to keep these problems to myself, and not burden others in the process.   I am attempting to deal with problems of the past and those of the present all at the same time.  There are times when I feel as if I am a juggler, and not a good one at that.  At times I feel that my circumstances are very bleak and dismal without much hope of a future.  However, I am not yet ready to quit.   Motivational Quote:   “It was courage, faith, endurance and a dogged determination to surmount all obstacles that built this bridge.” John J. Watson