It is good to take breaks and then, but sooner or later I have come back to reality.  This is not my idea of a good vacation.   Something seems to be going wrong in my life.  I try to make positive changes, but they usually turn out to not make much of a difference.   I thought going for a new home health care agency would be a good step in the right direction.  It does not seem to be that way.  I have a great CNA who provides real good care for me.  The person who does my cooking and house cleaning might as well stay home.  She only eats fish and rice.  That does not really make much difference except that she does not recognize many types of meat or know how to cook it.  My substitute CNA on Thursday nights leaves a lot to be desired.  I think she is a bit old for the job -- probably around 65 to 70.  She drops things and leaves them on the floor.  She also loses some of my medical equipment.  At least I have one good person (my CNA) out of three.  She tells me she will not be staying long since she is going to school and is studying to become a financial adviser.  That is not good news for me. I may start looking for another agency VERY soon!   How could I have possibly gotten three bad agencies in a row?  I guess it just takes talent.  I am going to see my doctor Thursday and will discuss the situation over with him.  I do not think he will like the way things are going either.   I am tired of writing nothing but complaints in my journal.  It may not bother others, but it is really starting to get to me.  Although life has its ups and downs, I would like to see a few more ups in my life.   Life Quotes:   “If you rest, you rust.” -- Helen Hayes