It is almost finished. The one agency that had to approve my change in home health care agencies did so this morning. Following a conversation with my case manager, I quickly sent an e-mail to my current home health care agency notifying it that I would be changing agencies within the next week or two. I needed to do this before I changed my mind. I intend to notify each specific person who helps me before the end of the night. I am still upset with the ordeal I have put myself through, but take some consolation in knowing that it is almost finished. I am highly nervous about starting out with new people, new times, and new routines. However, that feeling will not last forever and in a few weeks, it will be a thing of the past. I still think I am doing the right thing, but if I make a mistake, it will be mine and no one else's. This afternoon I am going to see the new psychologist. I have some reservations about this, but I am going to go ahead and give it a try anyway. The most I have to lose is a little time. A Daily Thought: “If you want to be successful, it's just this simple: Know what you're doing. Love what you're doing. And believe in what you're doing.” -- Will Rogers
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Jim,
I know some of what you are going through with having to make decisions tha tcan affect the lives of everyone around you.Last year I was faced with the decision of leaving Colorado and the friends and family that we left behind,also the doctors that know my case and had worked so hard to get me the right treatment.It was a hard thing to do and I did feel like I was turning my back on everyone that cared about me.But then I have to look at what was right for me at the time,I needed to reconnect with my family and friends that we had left some thirty years ago.In some ways that was a good thing and others it was not,but it was a choice that I had to make.Maybe my choice was different than yours and for different reasons but it was my choice.The choice to retire because of the disability to do my job was not mine and neither was having to go to all kind`s of doctors,so in a strange way making this move was a step for me getting my life back. Even if there are times that I think that I made the wrong move,it was still the right move for me to make.I will miss the friends that I made in Colorado but I will always have them in my heart and on my mind.And if I get to missing them to much I can alway`s call them or get in touch with them by e-mail,or maybe even take a trip to visit them.
My point is you can stillstay in touch with those who took care of you one way or another,but I think this was the best move for you.So don`t beat yourself up to much about it,sometimes you have to do what is best for you and who cares what they think or do if they were your friend YES they will be disapointed but it is your life and they should understand.
I will get off my soap box for now,keep in touch and take care of yourself.
Your Friend,
Monte
Hi Jim, sounds like you are making change, but change can be a very good thing. And like Monte said, you need to do the things that are good for you. And keeping in touch with anyone you care to. From the nurse\'s point of veiw, I would love to hear from anyone I helped and know they are doing fine. Take care, tcat
I am reading this a day late, but at least what you have said has finally gotten through to me. I have told the old company that I am leaving, and made arrangements with the new one to start taking over within the next two weeks. The choice had already been made for me since I knew that I could not keep going the way things were.
Sometimes choices are taken out of our hands, which can be a good thing now and then. Either the nurse, who I consider to be a friend, will think enough of me to continue our relationship, or she will not. That is her choice. No matter what she chooses to do, I consider my move as a large step for me. Once I have made a decision, I usually go through with it. Such is the case here. Thank you for your concern. Jim