EveningQuestions I have spent part of the day telling myself that it's good to be alive. Is that the truth? All I want is to be healthy and happy. Is that too much to ask? Each day is a struggle. I am growing weary of that. How much longer must it go on? I need friends in my life, but there are none. Does that seem fair? My family is there, but it does not always exist. Why is that? I am tired of living. Why won’t people let me kill myself? There are no good answers to these questions. Why am I asking them?
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Possibly you ask because even tho life is hard you want to stay? You have friends here that care. love tcat
Yes it is good to be alive; you are here for a reason, don\'t forget that.
No it is not to much to ask, and may be difficult at times, but you need to be the person that cares the most about you and then the rest will fall into place.
I understand your stuggles and you are not alone. Only take on the problems that belong to you right now. Don\'t try to clean up everything else for everyone in your life.
You have friends here...You can\'t make new ones in your apartment. Try to find local places that you will feel comfortable to go and make a regular schedule to get out. Ride services screw them up less.
Family is family and we love them no matter what they do, that is human nature but the friends and people that I can count on when the chips are down are the ones I consider family. Try that definition and see if it is helpful.
again for the last question: there is a reason why you are here and you are meant to be here for that reason. We all have things that we are suppose to accomplish in life. If things are stopping you from killing yourself then you aren\'t meant to die yet. Thing of things that are good about you. Name at least three before you start your day, then three goals, (small ones at first that you can complete in one day.) Try that for a while then when you feel better about you, the goals will come and you will begin to make larger ones.
Good luck, I care about you and do not want to see you kill yourself either. You make a difference in my life even though you don\'t get to see it.