Wednesday, May 16, 2007
1 PM
The only good thing about depression is that when you get down about as far as you can, there is only one way you can go and that is up. That is just about where I've been today and I cannot say it has been a very pleasant experience.
I have two -- at least two -- bad habits: first, I wait until I am almost out of medicine before getting refills; second, if my doctor says that taking medication is optional, I usually try to do without it, and that's where some of my problems begin.
Last week I ran out of one antidepressant. I waited until today -- nearly a week later -- to get the medication. During this period my mood dropped down like a lead weight. I'd like to blame someone else, but I can't. It is my fault for putting things off.
The one medicine, which is optional, is used to control pain. Because I don't usually have pain, and because the medication is a narcotic, I usually do without it. But yesterday, some pain began and it increased to an almost unbearable point today. I finally broke down and began taking the medication. After nearly an hour, most of the pain had left. It was that simple. Yet for me, it was hard making the decision.
It is becoming obvious to me that I am causing some of my own major problems. I have to change my ways and I know it will be difficult. But this is something I have to do no matter what. If I don't change, I will cause myself some medical problems, and lose some good friends who should not have to put up with my anger.
1 PM
The only good thing about depression is that when you get down about as far as you can, there is only one way you can go and that is up. That is just about where I've been today and I cannot say it has been a very pleasant experience.
I have two -- at least two -- bad habits: first, I wait until I am almost out of medicine before getting refills; second, if my doctor says that taking medication is optional, I usually try to do without it, and that's where some of my problems begin.
Last week I ran out of one antidepressant. I waited until today -- nearly a week later -- to get the medication. During this period my mood dropped down like a lead weight. I'd like to blame someone else, but I can't. It is my fault for putting things off.
The one medicine, which is optional, is used to control pain. Because I don't usually have pain, and because the medication is a narcotic, I usually do without it. But yesterday, some pain began and it increased to an almost unbearable point today. I finally broke down and began taking the medication. After nearly an hour, most of the pain had left. It was that simple. Yet for me, it was hard making the decision.
It is becoming obvious to me that I am causing some of my own major problems. I have to change my ways and I know it will be difficult. But this is something I have to do no matter what. If I don't change, I will cause myself some medical problems, and lose some good friends who should not have to put up with my anger.
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We don\'t consider it \"putting up with your anger\", Jim. Friendship is all about compassion, support and acceptance. We accept you for who you are, we support you in your times of need and we offer compassion when you need someone to talk to. Don\'t you do the same for us? If you intend to make changes, do so because it is what\'s best for you. This is one friend who isn\'t going anywhere. :o)