44 days smoke free
Boy, where do I start?? Maybe rapid cycling and manic .. some what good during the day.. then all hell breaks out... feel nuts at night... Seeing a bipolar therapist on Friday.. think shes a God sent...so nuts... hate this new med... it sucks...want to go on dates but can't... should I go to hospital or on a date??? Call my parents back on the east coast at midnight to cry and tell them how unstable I am... that I am losing it!! My step mom said she would call me tomorrow th check on me.. Its my step mom's B-day tomorrow I got her a $3.00 bar of almond soap in a beautiful sequance container. I am on a budget. Its the thought that counts!!
This afternoon I called some of the animal rescue centers and got the address of the center. My AA sponser said she wanted to come along, and my son didn't go to school it was a half day so we did something fun today for a change. I had mixed feelings about getting a adorable 4 year old gray schnauzer, who was a stray. My son feel in love with her instantly, then I did.. love her. As much as I make instant decisions , I am also very aprehensive... cause I am scared.
I hate not being on a good med and not seeing a therapist till Friday. Theres is a lot of conditions to treat. I never realized how difficult of a case I am to treat.
I have to keep praying more for help and guidance in all these areas.
This afternoon I called some of the animal rescue centers and got the address of the center. My AA sponser said she wanted to come along, and my son didn't go to school it was a half day so we did something fun today for a change. I had mixed feelings about getting a adorable 4 year old gray schnauzer, who was a stray. My son feel in love with her instantly, then I did.. love her. As much as I make instant decisions , I am also very aprehensive... cause I am scared.
I hate not being on a good med and not seeing a therapist till Friday. Theres is a lot of conditions to treat. I never realized how difficult of a case I am to treat.
I have to keep praying more for help and guidance in all these areas.
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Hugs. Hang in there. xo
I\'m so sorry you are feeling down at the moment. Aww, the dog sounds adorable. I wish you luck at your tdoc appt. on Friday. So very proud of you on your 44 days smoke free! Take care of yourself.
hey stacey, just hang in there... life has changed drastically for me. this disorder sucks! xoxoxo
I\'m sorry you\'re having a rough time of it!! I hope things change soon for you!!!!
I can totally relate!! Even though its been years since I smoked, the last month has been hell with the rapid cycling then going into a depression, and trying to climb out of it while trying to manage a household, job and school. Fun, fun, fun!!!
Hi Sweetie, You are really having it rough. I totally understand. I think some of my meds have quit working, I just don\'t know which ones. I made an app. for yesterday to get in to see my doc. earlier than planned, had to call and cancel, couldn\'t get up. I did the same today. I have called Agape counseling (Christian based) and I\'m going to try and start some counseling. I know you and your son will really enjoy the puppy. It will be so good for him and you too.
I hope your session goes good on Friday. Hang in there with your meds. Take care of you!