44 days smoke free

Boy, where do I start?? Maybe rapid cycling and manic .. some what good during the day.. then all hell breaks out... feel nuts at night... Seeing a bipolar therapist on Friday.. think shes a God sent...so nuts...  hate this new med... it sucks...want to go on dates but can't... should I go to hospital or on a date??? Call my parents back on the east coast at midnight to cry and tell them how unstable I am... that I am losing it!! My step mom said she would call me tomorrow th check on me.. Its my step mom's B-day tomorrow I got her a $3.00 bar of almond soap in a beautiful sequance container. I am on a budget. Its the thought that counts!!
This afternoon I called some of the animal rescue centers and got the address of the center. My AA sponser said she wanted to come along, and my son didn't go to school it was a half day so we did something fun today for a change. I had mixed feelings about getting a adorable 4 year old gray schnauzer, who was a stray. My son feel in love with her instantly, then I did.. love her. As much as I make instant decisions , I am also very aprehensive... cause I am scared.
I hate not being on a good med and not seeing a therapist till Friday. Theres is a lot of conditions to treat. I never realized how difficult of  a case I am to treat.
I have to keep praying more for help and guidance in all these areas.