So it's been a while since I wrote a journal so I figured I'd do an update!  So far nothing NEW with my IF issues.  I go for my HSG test on Tues. the 26th - and am just hoping and praying that my tubes are OK and not blocked or damage.  That is just my worst fear.  I'm nervous about the test itself, but not as bad as the results of it.  I feel if they are blocked and they can't clear them with the dye that I'm at a lose of things to do.  I don't have a ton of money to keep trying a ton of methods...and I never in a million years would have thought to "save up" for this.   So thats where I'm at with this.  If all goes well, then I can start my 100 mg of Clomid with the next cycle and see how that works.  Life in general has been a bit stressful...and i'm trying to cope with things and figure out a way to not stress as much as I have.  I'm really GREAT at giving the advice to people that they need to relax and things will happen for them...but when it comes to taking that advice WELL, I'm not so good at that.  Anyway, it was sweet, I was talking to my man and telling him that I'm so tense and anxious and stressed lately and it's driving me crazy.  So that was the end of the conversation really...then he had to leave to go take the kids somewhere and he calls me like a few minutes later (mind you this is like 20 minutes or more after I told him I was stressed and left it at that) well he calls and say's "Do you have a second? So what are you stressed about?" it was so cute that he had still been thinking about it and was concerned.  I love that man so much and am so grateful to have him.  We're not married and he really doesn't want to get married (again - he had a really bad first marriage) but he tells me we're family and he loves me no differently then he would if we were married.  I feel so fortunate to have him.   WELL...I gotta run...shopping again LOL!  I've been to baby shower after babyshower in the past few weeks and we have another one to go to in a few weeks that i need to shop for!  I love seeing all those beautiful baby things...but at the same times it's a bit hard because I so want that for me too!