K..have relocated to a new area. Didin't realize that you can google my screen name and it send you to a few sites I go to. So..I am so hoping I haven't disclosed my location at least in my journal...didn't see it anywhere...I think only a few of you know where I am. After the judge read his verdict, i know my ex wasn't happy...he and his laywer are taking thier time meeting with my lawyer to set dates for everything to be settled. My lawyer is ITCHIN to go back to court with them. THANK GOD that if it comes down to that, I won't have to be there!! I have to admit that I wsn't lookng forward to relocating AGAIN, but the move has been good so far, as where I am holds no memories that are good, for me with him. I am running into people long gone out of my life due to the seclusion and desolation I was in. They find it hard to believe that I am the person I am now as compared to the person I was. Some of them are hurt because I didn't keep in contact with them. All I can say to them is I'm sorry. Either they will forgive me and get over it or they won't. Will be sad for me if they say no but it won't be the first time. I still want to fulfill what I need to fulfill as far as educating against mental, emotional, physcological, finacial and sexual abuse as well as physical abuse. I have the idea in my head, just not how to portray it to such a point that people would take a second look. Have been speaking with my counselors and my best friend about it and we have come up with ways to do it. But ways to do it costs imagination, which I have, and talent to do it, which I don't, and guts enough to portray my insides as an example, which I will do. Authority figures, police, etc...need to be educated to the fact that there are more than one type of abuse. Just because you can't see the bruises, cuts, scars, broken bones, etc...does NOT mean they don't exist. We, as victims and survivors, need help in situations. Not to be made to feel that we deserve the treatment we recieve when we beg for help. Maybe by "putting" myself out there, the men and women going thru these situations and abuses will see that they are not crazy and will seek help before their lives are over or snuffed out. My PTSD is a DIRECT result of what my ex did. And in a future entry, I hope it isn't considered indirect contact!!, I will write him a letter FOR MY BENIFIT. Not for him to read because he is so egotistical that he still doesn't see. For his sake, I do hope something, SOMETHING inside of him is triggered and he does realize he needs help. In the meantime, I want him to live a LONG LONG LONG HEALTHY LIFE!!!! LOL!!! Thank yall again for being the bestest of supporters I could have!! That includes my bestest supporter of all...the one that answers the phone everytime I call with the same questions over and over without pause. God Bless and Good Luck to yall!! Till my next entry.......HUGS!!!!!!!