Sorry I haven't wriiten in this journal for a few days. Am trying to come to terms with different emotions I am going thru. The PTSD has my anxiety/panic attacks coming more frequently. Sometimes, I feel as though I am hanging on by a thin thread. DS does help so very much. The support of all is tremendous in my well being. How do you express in words or in any other way how greatful you are to the people "surrounding" you and helping lift you up? I have been becomging extremely anxious due to the fact that I fly out on wed to IN for court on Thurs. I have to be in the same room with this...whatever it is. The PTSD has me not only scared, anxious and paranoid but it is really putting a strain on my heart as well. The outflow hasn't gotten any better and it affects my veins. My hands constantly hurt and now it iss up into my arms. Am lookinf for a therapist that won't fog me up with lots of meds but will help me thru this. I have seen EMDR quite frequently on some of yalls journals. I have done some research on it and am curious as to exactly how it works and the progress it is makiing with the disorder. Pls keep me in yalls prayers unil  return back here on the 26th. Keep me in your thoughts on the 24th, if you can. I will try to keep yall updated and, I promise, as soon as I get over this HUMP, I will try to be more supportive. Sorry I have fallen short. Still in my thoughts and prayers as well as my heart to all of you.....Karen