Guess between the trip and work, it took more out of me than I thought! Haven't been on here in awhile as I have been so busy tracking down medical records, legal ways of shipping bullet casings without them being handled, doctor appts and more trip reservations, as my NEW divorce date is the 24th of April. My poor body is fighting to MOVE but my heart is saying, SLOW DOWN DARNNIT!!!!! The expense is overwhelming, finacially, mentally, emotionally, and physically. I do have my I CAN DEFEAT THE WORLD days but I also have the days that the world has defeated me!! I still refuse to lay down and be walked on....not without a HUGE fight. I am finding it difficult to trust people as I once did, which I used to over-trust...now to find a good, solid in-between!!! On the funny side, I went to counseling tonight and didn't get in trouble!!! LOL!!! Went last tuesday night and got held behind after everyone left so that the counselor and MY counselor could speak with me. Seems I minimized my experiences with the abuse because I couldn't see bruises on my body caused by him. Funny though, the bruises I have on me now ARE caused by him...indirectly. Because of his "suicide", the angina attack it threw me into, the blood thinners I am now on, I bruise easily. So yes, he does bruise me. I did do better this week!! WHOOHOO!!!! Anyway, hope everyone is doing well and I will try to get on more often!! Hugs and lots of THANKS to EVERYONE!!!!!!KarenP.S. I am not critisizing my counselors as they are helping me out . I thought it was cute that I was called down in abuse therapy!!! Trying to look at the positive and funny side of life for a change!!!