Well, I am hoome again!! Thank God!! I am really uncomfortable and afraid in Indiana. I did, however, run into some people I used to work with. They noticed a huge change in me!! Not only did they notice that I had lost weight but they said that I glow!!! Made me feel good!!! I realize what a warped sense of reality I lived in for so long. I so much so missed my family!! I still have to go back to In for the divorce but am armed with lots of new strenght and, is evidence the word I am looking for? I do not want to ruin him but will not lay down anymore and be ruined myself. I am exhausted though...the trip was not only physically taxing but mentally taxing as well. Emotionally taxing in the fact that there are some people I do miss that live there and missing being with people here at home that do love me UNCONDITIONALLY!!! I am not me yet, but will be there soon!! Still have bad images in my head but am dealing with those one step at a time!! Thank you everyone on here for your support. It does help and means so much to me!! When I am feeling weak, the comments and yalls journals let me know I AM NO LONGER ALONE. I hate the fact that yall are going thru this but going thru it together does make a huge difference!!