Just when I think I am getting somewhere, I hit rock bottom again. Good news for the day, my lil sis had a surgical procedure today. All went well and I am mothering her, which she is eating up!! Not to mention it makes me feel special that I can do something for her. It is serving my purpose for today, and tomorrow, and the next until she recovers. I have noticed that when I have my bad days, I am sooooo tired. I know I don't have the stamina I should have due to condition of my heart but this is different. My feelings get hurt over what some might seem as trivial. One of my closest friends, really hurt me tonight. He walked aways up a hill to speak to me because he needed muy support. Needless to say, things got out of hand. Everything is always my fault. Not just him, I know it is me. But I can't take the stress of being blamed for things that does not happen. He has been an excellent support person for me but in a lot of way, makes me feel like I fall short. Just a word of warning to those of you with cell phones, make sure when the conversation ends, YOU HANG UP THE PHONE!!!! Just a dreary day. Tomorrow will be better. It has to be. Morphed, thank you for helping me face things I put off facing but need to be addressed. You truly are an awesome person!!!!