K..today is good! FINALLY!!! Yesterday didn't turn out as bad as I thought it would. It kinda went by fast. My nephew got a WII for Christmas and he taught me to "box". I put that in quotations because I am not real sure that boxing was what I was doing! I start out at one end of the living room and end up in the kitchen..they really must move that wall!!! He is 9 and to hear him laugh sounds like angels twinkling bells! Anyway, he won needless to say! I aslo had a very long conversation with my brother in law. He is more like a brother to me and I have no doubts he loves me as well. I also spoke with a very special friend of mine. Thank God they are patient with me. I ask the same questions over and over again, even rephrasing them. Both my friend and my BIL have reassured me that not all people, men or women are like my not soon enough to be ex. The abuse I went thru for so long did not happen over night. It was so gradual that I didn't know it was happening until it was too late. Anyway, Both have helped me and I can finally cut off some of those "switches" in my head that add to my stress and drive me nuts. I know that there are lights at the end of the rainbow and I realize that it is going to be a long journey but more so, I realize I am not alone. WORKINGTHRU has been such an insiration for me, not to mention all the hugs and support I recieve from all of you who read my journal. I keep all of you in my prayers. Thank yall for helping me and thinking of me not only on my bad days but on my good days as well. I know this is going to be a long hard journey and that I will have good days but I also know that one day my bad days will lessen and more good days there will be. Now, for those of you taht can use your imagination and could use a laugh, even at my expense, I will share with you the experience of my "boxing" training. You are supposed to use your arms and hands to make the controller to react but for some reason my feet an legs have a mind of their own. I am so sore today!! I have used muscles that I don't believe exist! My family that I live with said I looked like a cross between the scarecrow from The Wizard of Oz, Pheobe running from Friends, and an epileptic ape. I thought I looked good!!! LOL!!! And I didn't win but put up such a good fight that I beat myself with the cord from the nunchuck connected to the controller so I look like and Indian warrior. My best shots to my opponent happened by accident. The cord kept getting wrapped around the knob on the nunchuck and I would twist the nunchuk to loosen the cord. I would make a hit! (Took credit for it anyway...like I meant to do that!)!! Smiles, lots of hugs and prayers to everyone!!!