Just feeling tired today. Also feeling guilty. Watched the news and also have relatives in the military. Can't imagine what they are feeling. Is this normal? I used to have a "role" in life. Or what I thought was a "role". I had someone telling me what to do, how to act, what I felt, now there is noone to tell me these things. It feels good in a way. I know what my feelings are. I don't need to be told. But what is my "role" now? I am not a wife, robot, slave, object. I keep a written journal as well as the journal on here. I want a home of my own that noone can throw me out of. If I lose it, it will be because of me. I want a home. I want me back. Does anyone else have these feelings or am I just so screwed up in the head? I have been told that the healing began when I got out of that situation but, I am so lost. I am just so lost.