Hello to Everyone,Hope you all are doing well.  I had an interesting day.  I went for my annual gynocologist check-up. And this time ,I was not just angry, I was in tears.  It's just upsetting.   He's nice enough, but not really alot of compassion.  I even get the feeling that he thinks there's more to the story.  Which just adds to the whole issue that I am misunderstood and not taken seriously.  I asked him if he saw many patients like myself that just really couldn't get relief and he said that I was unusual, most women get help with progesterone cream or birth control pills.  I do believe now that I am an unusual case, and I know that there possibly is another health condition that is not detected.  But I also know here at DS, and friends that are having really awful hormonal issues--anyway, he just made me angry and then sad, then I really just wanted to have a pity-party. Then I thought to myself--you dummy, why do you set yourself up like this.   He is suggesting the birth control pills for me.  I have had conflicting reports on the safety of them for women my age (51).  It makes me afraid.  My naturopath said he doesn't think it's a good option--that the possible side effects-strokes and heart attacks and cancer are worse than I'm dealing with.  But then again, I'm not sure he really understands how difficult it is for me.Confused and bouncing off the walls is kinda where I'm at now.......I mean yesterday I just went into the health store and bought $100.00 worth of products (it's usually$150.00).......and then today I go and get the advise from the medical doctor.......I know that I'm appearing desperate, and I guess I am. I know I need to make some decisions and stick to them.   I'm just starting to really panic--thinking of the possibility of more days bad days like I had.  Then I feel bad, because atleast I've felt better for the last week and a half, so I'm thinking maybe I'm just weak.