Hi Everyone,We enjoyed the beach trip, but "real life" sets in pretty quickly. Had to go to help my youngest daughter move out of her apartment at college. She will be living in North Carolina. She is working in politics and is so excited. We are so proud and excited for her. I have two other children and they live fairly close, so this is my first encounter with one of my children living away..........yesterday, I was a total mess. Suspect hormones might have had something to do with it, too. But just spent hours boo-hooing.........sometimes I think I have alot of regret and grief over what could have been because I had health issues almost the whole time I was raising my daughters, I mean I just lived under a fog of fatique so much of the time, I had to push myself so hard .......things could have been so much worse, though, and God has blessed in many, many ways. Having PMDD sometimes destroys relationships, but we are really close......I don't really make transitions well.
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glad you had fun at the beach..how fast real life does set in smile..i\'m proud for your daughter and i know you are too even though it will be hard to let her go that far away she will be fine smile..sounds like she really has her life together that is so good and your so blessed...don\'t feel bad about the past and your fatique..you did you best and it sounds as though your childen have turned out to be wonderful...big hugs sweetie..love you terri
Aw Cindy, it must be so hard letting go of them. I still have both mine at home and occasionally fantasise that I don\'t!! But, I know when it comes to it I will find it hard.... None of us are perfect, we just have to try our hardest and let God manage the rest..!
So glad you had a good break.. Hx
Aw, hugs and more hugs for you. I can\'t imagine. I want my boys to live with me forever. You guys will adjust, though, and it will be okay. My thoughts are with you.
I finally don\'t have any regrets. It took years of working hard on them to finally get to the place I\'m at where I realize that in every case, I did the very best I could do in every way. I was born tired & in a fog of fatigue myself. I lost friends because I couldn\'t keep up but again, I know I did the best I could.
Give yourself credit for everything you did right.
You could write to each of your daughters & tell them what you told us. You find relief in doing that!
I think that to be a mother is to grieve -- we lose, right up front, the baby we dreamed of at them moment we are present with our red-skinned little bundles and it just doesn\'t stop. I think it all means that we are involved in and deeply care about our children which is the message that will sustain them in their adult years, even after we are gone. I don\'t have to be hormonal to get freaked out about the day my son leaves our home for college and, eventually, for good. Thank goodness I\'ve still got six years to go! As far as being in a fog when your kids were young, my mom was too but she could never have said \"we are really close.\" That you can say that means that you must have done a lot of somethings right. Remember that children are very forgiving as long as they are loved and I\'ve no doubt yours are thoroughly loved and have long since \"forgiven\" any faults you might perceive in yourself. It\'s right to grief what you feel you might have lost in your fatigue and dysphoria, but it\'s also right to celebrate a world where good relationships can persist in the face of them.
Good for you for recognizing your weaknesses and dealing with them. Its always ok to share emotions.
I am glad that you had a good time. My oldest left earlier this month... Tears your heart out for you, but, excited for them. I would rather them chase their dreams then have them sit on my couch playing video games. Productive adults!!! our ultimate goal. May God bless you.LYL Tonya