i know this sounds horrible but i am begining to really dislike my mother, all she does is lose it at me constantly then when i state my case she turns it back on me, so that pisses me off no amount, coz she's just gone nuts at me and somehow made it my fault. so i tell her to stop and leave me alone for 5 minutes. then i get well no one can talk to u anymore rachael, what!!!! everyone else can talk to me fine, except her. everything i do, she has a problem with what i didn't do. today in the car she told me never to speak to her again, so i told her to get the fuck out of my car, so she did. and now that i've been evicted, i have no choice but to live with her. about 5 minutes ago, i was told not to call her mum but to refer to her by her first name. what do i do. i don't want to have to stop talking to her because i don't think thats right, but everything i do and say is wrong by her. i used to just put up with it and ignore it, but now it infuriates me to the point that i tell her to shut the fuck up and get off my back. and that causes more crap. i feel like she's taking it all out on me, and there's no reasoning with her, coz she loses it, i literally have to walk on egg shells to get around her. and there's still no guarantee she won't flip her shit. apparently i have never done anything for her, i don't know if she has noticed that i have let her and her husband live at my house for the last 5 months. i generally try to be a positive person, but she is so negative about everything, literally. i wish she wasn't because she is never gonna enjoy the rest of her life while she so bitter and quite frankly a bitch!oh, i had to get that out, just so u know, i do love my mum, i just don't know what i'm supposed to do anymore, we clearly can't live together but at the moment there's no other option.
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good vent! no, i\'m not taking what you say lightly. my dad gets kinda like that on me sometimes but he comes back round. sounds like she has more issues than u do. I hope you can cohabitate ( i really don\'t think that\'s a word but you get my meaning) together. i\'m a \"writer\" so sometimes when its going bad with my dad, mum or my wife, i write down my feelings and the shit i\'m going thru and let them read it when i\'m not around. sometimes it helps as they don\'t have to put up defenses due to my presence. just my thoughts.
Greg
Wow, I can totally relate about the Mom thing. I too am in a quite similar situation, if you read my journal, you\'ll see. Your Mom sounds quite a lot like mine and yes, it is totally frustrating, to say the least. I am also living with my parents, because there is no other option, but I am hoping that VERY SOON, I\'ll be able to get out of here. Want to go to Illinois and start my new life. Good luck with yours and stay positive. I know how hard that is being around someone so negative, but try. And, lucks to you.