ok, so i had yet another screaming match with my mother, it seems i alwayz have the ability to say the wrong thing and make her flip at me, she keeps saying i can't talk to u anymore rachael, but all i want is for her  to understand why that is... i can't be the same person i was and be her rock, i can't support her emotionally anymore because i'm not stable enough to do it, i want her to hear the shit that goes thru my fucking head everyday so that she can understand why i am so reserved, i told her (whether i should have or not) that all i hear everyday is my son this and my son that, and i have never once heard "my daughter", she flipped, it went something like 'there's othing fucking wrong with u, my son is in jail and i have to worry about him everyday' and i was trying to say mum i'm not ok i am really not, but she wouldn't listen. why won't she even try to understand what i'm going thru. i'm not jealous that she favourites my brother, but i just want her to treat him like an adult because he is, and she won't accept that he doesn't need to have her interfere with every thing he does, if ANY mums read this they'll probably say, oh if she had kids she'd understand, and yeah probably right but i don't so haha. i just want to be helped and have support, but it seems the only place i can get support is DS, and i'm so grateful for it.