so its 3 a.m. i am so exhausted, and i cant sleep, i've tried for ages but now i'm just got up again coz i've been told if u cant sleep to get up for a while because laying in bed just makes u agitated, and yeah i'm really frustrated coz all i wanna do is sleep but i just can't and its really pissing me off. i do nothing but toss and turn over and over bla bla bla...ok so i'm crying now, i miss my brother so much, he went to jail 2 months ago, and until then i haven't gone one single day without seeing him, he's my best mate. and i'm finding it so hard to cope without him, i just want to see him, i want to know that he's safe. i wanted to protect him from everything but i feel like ive failed him, i miss him so much. everything is getting too much for me i've got a  million bills, my work has just been cut down to a day and a half a week, which means i get 150 a week, i've applied for a million jobs, but living in a small country area there's too many ppl not enough jobs. i'm afraid that i'm gonna lose my house, my car is gonna cost me a fortune to fix, i'm using my x bf's car atm coz mine isn't going. too much shit on my mind. i'm so so sick of this shit.