Friday

ok... after Tuesday's day spent on the shitter, now I'm not shitting at all. I hate IBS!!! some days shitting all day, some days none! the two things I hate the most is the fibromyalgia and IBS!! I can tolerate the back pain, leg pain, plantar faceitus (feet), neck, head aches, pain in my arms, etc... but my life has been taken away from me worst of all by fibromyalgia, and even tho IBS hasn't ruined my life I hate it 2nd most of all. FM keeps me tired all the damn time and even tho I push to do something everyday, every minute of it my body feels like crawling back into bed and not getting up. everywhere I go I'm so sick and tired of people asking me "why are you so tired? what's wrong? you look healthy to me" gosh...how do I even answer that??! and it's not just fatigue, there's all the other shit that FM causes. memory relaps all the damn time, muscles feel like they don't want to work for the simplest task, jaw pain (i've had to switch to eating mushy foods on certain days), muscle pain, migraines almost daily, and the list goes on!! and for IBS, I usually only get about 1 flare a week but this week has been totally fucked by it! IBS totally ruins my mood. it makes me not wanna leave the house and it also ruins my desire in bed. i can't help it, I'm not gonna wanna have sex if my insides feel like shit!! i miss the old me!  on a brighter note... it's Friday. and that means one i get to see my sweetie, and two time for a few days of fun! yay!! Hope everyone has a good pain free weekend!