I feel horrible today, i'm so sore. I was at the VA again all day yesterday and I hate being there ALL day! Thank God MAtthew was there for most of the day by my side up until the last appt. He had to go back to base for his college class so he couldn't stay. Over the weekend, we had some more long talks about each other's attitudes and ironed out some more issuses. I told him how I hate his hateful attitude and that it doesn't help me or him. He told me how he hates my anger and we talked about strategies to help each other.When I was at the VA with MAtthew, he was very supportive and loving towards me. I really think that we will work. We have made so much progress on our communication, it's not perfect but we are trying. I do see a future for us. Some good things in life you just have to keep working at and not give up on. Yesterday's last appt was for me to get an IUD put in. I haven't had any kids yet so putting it in REALLY hurt! I was SO sore when I came home, all I could do is lay down. But I'm so sick of switching birth control methods! You see, I have fibro cystic breast diseas and I get these VERY PAINFUL cysts and if I allow myself to have a period every month like regular women, they become so severly painful. The less periods I have, the less and smaller cysts I have to endure. So the birth control methods have to be used differently than their regular use, therefore I am exposed to more estergen than what they are intended for. So, my docs keep switching the methods on me because they said that I have a higher chance of getting blood clotts. At our last appt, she was telling me that I gotta switch again! And I was telling her that they have to come up with a solution to this madness!! I'm sick of it! Then she tells me about the IUD that has hormons in it and it lasts 5 years. And I told her I don't care what you have to do, make it happen. She said that it's usually for people that have had kids and that if I haven't had any yet it will hurt a lot more. I told her I don't care! i'm sick of switching methods! So yesterday I got my wish. Besides, i'm used to pain anyway, what difference is it gonna make?!