I feel like shit today. Not only do I feel like shit but i'm f#ckin depressed too, sometimes I just want the pain in side to stop. Matt and I argued again and sometimes he gets to sound so hateful. There is nothing I can do to make the hateful attitude stop. There are so many days where we absolutely love each other and do anything for each other, but it seems like when we bump heads, nothing I do is good enough and it feels like he hates me. My meds made me all swimmy again and I felt I was half drunk or somethin. I had to go to the federal building today about my SSDI and just sitting there and waiting made it worse. I just wanted to crawl back into bed all day. Well I'm home now and I'm just gonna do just that.Have a good Friday everyone. God bless.