I feel like shit today. Not only do I feel like shit but i'm f#ckin depressed too, sometimes I just want the pain in side to stop. Matt and I argued again and sometimes he gets to sound so hateful. There is nothing I can do to make the hateful attitude stop. There are so many days where we absolutely love each other and do anything for each other, but it seems like when we bump heads, nothing I do is good enough and it feels like he hates me. My meds made me all swimmy again and I felt I was half drunk or somethin. I had to go to the federal building today about my SSDI and just sitting there and waiting made it worse. I just wanted to crawl back into bed all day. Well I'm home now and I'm just gonna do just that.Have a good Friday everyone. God bless.
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SOMETIMES CRYING INTO A PILLOW HELPS. MOST OF THE TIME IT DOESN\'T. THAT IS WHEN YOU NEED A FRIEND OR SIGNIFICANT OTHER TO HOLD YOU CLOSE AND WARM YOU UP FROM WITHIN. (((HUGS)))
i feel your frustration girl! are your meds working for the pain though?
ya I do feel less pain so I think they are doing their job so far
Hang in there...... we both know depression is a part of what we go through with the pain. Hang in there.... okay? I know your frustrations......HUGS!!
You are in my prayers sweetie!!
Honey, I\'m so sorry about all this! Don\'t you think Matt is making the pain worse with his hateful comments? I know I am less likely to heal from something if someone is being mean-mouthed to me. It adds the very stress that you don\'t need! You don\'t have to put up with it, you know. At this point, I don\'t think his behavior can be excused. You get stressed out and don\'t take it out on people, right? So why take it from him?
Hi Sweetness!
I\'m sorry I\'m just now reading this thinking that you had a miserable weekend when I could have written something to pull you right out of your shitty mood (like right!). Matt is getting to be too much for me. Quite frankly, at this point, I think we\'re all starting to want to strangle him. If he treats you like this now, what will he treat you like when the honeymoon is over. Believe me it won\'t be any better. What is it you\'re fighting about? Do you have healthy arguments or unhealthy arguments. It\'s ok to argue, but not if someone is name calling, emotionally attacking or verbal abusing the other person. Tearing down one\'s self-esteem is a big no no (same thing as being critical). Try to think about the real reason for the arguement. How did it start? What was said? What was the real conflict? Could you live with this 2 years from now? Five years? Do you think this can improve, or do you feel like he causes the arguments? Some time spent analyzing the problem may reveal a pattern you see that repeats itself. We all play roles in this. What is your role? What is his role?
You said your medicine was making you \"all swimmy.\" Is this one med or a combination of meds.
I\'m sorry to hear that you are in pain, and I will definately pray for you. I really care about you, and I hate it when you\'re in pain. Here\'s a big hug.
Talk to you later,
Elaine