I just balled up into a ball last night, just hoping to make it through. The vomiting hurt so bad I felt like a mob had kicked my ass. my mom had made me some perogies in hopes that I could eat something to soak up the acid. I was begining to wander if there was any acid left in my stomach after it all came out till nothing but dry heaves was all I could do. I couldn't really taste much when eating them since my tounge and throat were burned out by the stomach acid, but I managed to eat all 4 and keep them down. My stomach actually welcomed it and it began to sooth me. After I ate, I had no energy left so I curled up and hoped I could sleep. My stomach was still in nots, but it was calmed enough for me to handle it. Today, I had to get up and pick up a door from home depot, so even though I still felt shitty, I went through with it. The remainder of the day, I stayed in bed. I talked to Matthew and he made it sound like I didn't do anything. I got angry because I know if he were in my shoes, he couldn't handle it. He couldn't handle just trying to get from one day to the next with out feeling like giving up. Especially knowing that this is what you got until the mad scientists have an answer. Why does he always want me to be sensitive to his struggles but he can't be sensitive to mine? Am I just crazy for thinking it should go both ways?
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You are right, it should go both ways. You are a warm and caring person and it sounds like your mom gave you a lot of emotional support. Not everyone had an example like that. Perhaps Matthew has to experience this kind of attention before he knows how to give it. My DH has grown a lot sweeter over the years and he says that he has learned from the way I treat him. It\'s hard to keep giving and not getting in return. Sometimes it evens out in the end and sometimes it doesn\'t. But taking risks is part of love I guess. You have to decide if you think there is potential there.
I also think it\'s hard for a person who does not have chronic pain to understand it.
BTW I love the mad scientist bit. DH and I work in medical research and I sometimes joke that he is a mad scientist.
Chammollie tea sis,keep some always in the cupboard>>Peace
sorry to hear that! hope you are doing better now!
No you are not crazy! Matt is not willing or able to help you right now, apparently. Most women handle pain so much better than men, that\'s why it freaks some of \'em out when they have to be supportive. They just don\'t understand it like we do. Just keep taking care of yourself and don\'t expect anything from him...I wish it were different for you. He\'s not grown-up enough yet to deal with a real woman, and that is his loss. Love you, be good to yourself!
I will. I\'m getting less and less patient with him. I\'m beginning to think he\'s just a loser.
No babe your not crazy folks tend to be like that a lot of times. They dont understand until it happens to them. You sound like a trooper though, I dont think I would have gotten up to do anything unless the house was on fire...you are a real fighter and I am proud of you