I miss my sweet heart...I haven't seen him since Tuesday morning. He's been so busy on base with classes and duty. i've still been pretty depressed and he is still kinda mad at me from the fight we had, but I miss him anyway. We're both stubborn arguementative peolpe, but the difference between him and I is that my anger is fast and explosive, his is slow implosive and stays for a while. Mine goes away within minutes. We are kinda backwards in the relationship role. He has moods and I don't really get em unless I'm in bad pain or sick or worried about something. I can hold off on an arguement or discussion till after sex, he can't. He won't be in the mood. At this point i'm wandering if maybe I should get him some roses to cheer him up. Not kidding. I'm still not at ease about the kidney scan and won't be until I get results and especially if there's an effective treatment for what ever the problem is. Yesterday I sat around all day...I had no motivation what so ever to do anything. Mom kept asking me if I wanted to go to the beach, I didn't even feel like doing that. I just wanted to dissapear for a day.