I'm going to try and type weally weally cawefully.....Cos I don't want this bloody journal entry to disappear just when I get to the end like the last couple of times!!I feel really bad at the moment.  I was supposed to meet an old friend for tea last night.  She was down here for a wedding and had booked a restaurant for dinner (with her partner too).  I was in so much pain yesterday that I tried to sleep through most of it or was drugged up on pain killers etc.  I tried phoning around to see where they were staying but no luck, so I left a message at the restaurant.  I haven't seen her in years and she lives about 3 hours away so I was really looking forward to catching up.  I feel just awful - she doesn't really know about the FM and I don't think she'd understand.  I should have phoned tonight to apologise, but (excuses I know) I was so tired and in so much pain when I finally got in from work, and then my son turned up and stayed for dinner, it got too late.  I will phone tomorrow night, but I just hate what this bloody disease does to us Well, I'm off to bed in the hope of a better day tomorrow - I have a late meeting I have to go to and take the minutes (boring!!).  At least I get to start a bit late.Pain free wishes to all.Deb