So, I'm kind of down right now. I mean I feel okay, but a little frustrated. I seem to be at a stand still with my illnesses. I have been struggling with insomnia, although, I don't really think it's insomnia, I'm just in so much pain at night that I can't sleep. I have been taking 30 mg of Baclafen before bed to try to ease my lower back and hip pain, didn't help. I had a doctors appointment yesterday, told him what was up, and he said that was waaayyyy to much! Was surprised it wasn't helping so put me on Flexerill instead. We'll see how it works tonight. He raised my Adderall up to 20mg a day, which I am sooooo glad! I've really been struggling with the fatigue. Even after I take an adderall, I could sleep all day! He also asked me, and I guess this is what put me in a funk, if I had a family history of Bi-Polar. I said no. Then he said, "Sheri, I've been treating you for about 4 years, beginning with depression and almost two years with all of this, do you feel like I am doing you any good? Because I don't. I don't feel like I am helping you. That crushed my heart. He has helped me so much. I told him well, now I have a diagnosis for the pain....Fibro, and a diagnosis for the fatigue....CFS. Before, I didn't have that. I now am taking Adderall, without that, I couldn't function. The pain, we're still working on! But the Bi-Polar question threw me for a loop. Do you think he's thinking I'm Bi-Polar? I honestly don't think I am. I struggle with depression, but with Cymbalta, I have never felt better.  So, I guess right now I'm feeling like I have no where to turn, once again. That I will have to deal with all of this on my own, once again. That no one believes me, once again. Now, I am afraid to voice my fears, and pains, and feelings.  So, I will do the Sheri thing and ignore what I am going through. I will keep it to myself. As far as the Neuro goes, the one they were looking into didn't take my insurance, so they are looking into another one. They have agreed with me in NOT sending me back to the first one. Well, that's what's been going on with me. Just a little down, nothing big. Still believing God has some answers for me. When one door closes, another opens. I just hope the blurry visions goes away so I can see the door! LOL! Love everyone!