So sick of feeling sick. So sick of being tired. So sick of being afraid to do what I want or need to do for fear of tomorrow. At least once a month I get the flu symptoms for a year now. I have never had to deal with being sick like this in all of my life. I could take of my whole family with the flu and never get it. And now? I get it all the time! Every month! That's how this whole thing started as a matter of fact. I was shopping with my husband, and suddenly got sick, had to come home and was in bed for two days sick. That was last November. Now, here I am, almost a year later, still going through the same thing. I've learned I have Fibro,Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, Epilepsy. . . well, maybe (neuro isn't sure)but not MS. Yet, here I sit, with L'hermitte's sign, eyesight problems, spasticity. . . well, honestly, I don't see the difference between Fibro and MS except the lesions. So, maybe the ones dx'd withFibro are the 5% without lesions? Oh yeah! I almost forgot about the tumor on my brain that my "stupid" neuro has spotted yet has done nothing about! Okay. . .so, what is this journal entry all about? Your guess is as good as mine. I guess i'm just venting. Not feeling well, tired, blah, blah, blah.......But what I can say is that God has given me strength today,and I really shouldn't be griping, I prayed this morning before I got out of bed that He would give me strength and He did. He made it possible for me to not take a nap today, He has given me smiles, laughter and love today. He gave me friends and support and information here. I appreciate you all so much, and I am so blessed that He has put you all in my life. And I am truly grateful that I am going through this, because without this I wouldn't be here today. Thank you Lord for what you have given me, thank You that You carry me through the good days and the bad days and You allow me to be angry. You are a merciful graceful God and I praise You. Bless my friends, give them painfree days. Fill their minds with peace and their hearts with laughter. In Jesus' Holy Name I pray. . . .amen.  Love you All me