I am sick with mono, so I should really go to bed.. I have to wake up at 5:30 tomorrow morning to take the bus to school. I have an assignment overdue tomorrow and I haven't finished it yet. But I know that if I go to sleep now, I'll have a hard time finishing it tomorrow.... especially since I am finding my study habits to be unacceptable in public. I find it helps to read aloud from my text book. I have a really hard time concentrating on things like text books for school. I start to feel overwhelmed and I drop it all.. That is definitely a reoccuring theme in my life. When I get overwhelmed I drop it and find something new. But I have been trying to stick with it. See it out. Get on through. In the past I would stay up veryy late to finish my assignment and I would go really into the assignment.... I was probably manic during those times. I can think of a select few times when I got into an assignment in high school and stayed up until the morning came and either never go to sleep or get a couple hours in. But now I am trying to be smart about my mental health (largely my bipolar disorder) and, in this situation, my physical health too (mono).. So I am going to go to sleep and figure it out tomorrow.. I feel like a failure in a small way. Am I just procrastinating? I have a bad habit of being over the top hard on myself.. does anyone else get that way? boy do i have to work on time management.. looking back, it would have been a good idea to get my homework done when i got home from school so i wouldnt have this problem  now. but instead i rearranged my room and cleaned things up..... organized and destressed.. it was a great thing really, but my priorities should be schoolwork first.. But really I want to explore music.. are there any musicians out there? i sure am loving that part of life right now.. music is a fascinating way of expression..