Hi everyone, I'm so tired today. I dont know what it is. I feel like i can sleep for hours on end, or just take a lot of pills and sleep the pain away but i know i cant do that. I'm feeling like all my thoughts are trying to stay in me and not get out which i know it's a good thing, but I'm slowly working on that. I dont feel the best right now but I'm sure in time it will get better. I'm so hungry i feel like i can eat a cow. I think about food all the time and it sucks. school is going OK i worry about it a lot just because I'm not where i want to be at the moment. My thoughts are just everywhere and it sucks. I have so many thoughts all the time and it's like my mouth can only move so fast to get them all out. So a lot of it has to stay in me. I've been thinking about my girl and I and what a different life we are going to have when we move to PDX. It's so exciting i cant wait. I know things will be a lot better for us there especially emotionally and socially. My depression is still here which sucks. It wont go away. I wish i was the old Heather again. i dont like this person that i am. i dont know just some thoughts. Ill live though. My girlfriend just got rid of her dog, which was a good thing because it was for the best, but i miss him very much. I'm working on moving on....anyway ill write more later. Me
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I don\'t know your past experiences with keeping thoughts in, but it is not a good thing normally to do so. Whether thru writing, talking or thru some other form of communication it is always good to get out whats bothering you on the inside. Otherwise everything just eats you up. I am sorry to hear that you don\'t like yourself. You are pretty cool to me! I am glad that we are friends and I hope everything works out for you Heather. I\'m sorry to hear about the dog. It always hurts to give away animals. They know all our secrets.. lol :P If you ever need to talk you know where to find me. *Hugs*
I know what you mean, I do the same thing. I sleep aaaall the time...except when I\'m supposed to. And I also look to the future for hope. Try to keep looking towards that and not dwell too much on the past (easier said than done, I know). Remember people love you for who you are!