Life is crazy and I haven't written in a long time. My job is going well. I have been there 5 years. My wife and I have been together 8 years and married for 3. She finished school and is looking for work. I am crossing my fingers for her. My wife and I are good. We are working on starting a family. I love her so much and know we will be good moms.
I am taking my O&M (orientation & mobility) class at the commission for the blind. It's going good. My hope is to get a Guide Dog but we will see how things go. My instructor keeps saying different remarks to me that is starting to get on my nerves. He is funny but sometimes he says stupid remarks about my vision that he shouldn't say because he is sighted and doesn't understand. Saying "Oh you still have functional vision. I am sure your using that but for people that have none...blah blah blah."
I am feeling lost as far as getting a career and I feel everything I try for fails. It really sucks. I want to be a mental health counselor. I want to be able to help people. I have applied to grad school twice. Got denied from both. It sucks.
My ED is going down but I am trying to get better and stay healthy but I am struggling. My friend told me tonight that "Oh she use to be skinny". she was talking to me. She knows I have a ED. I was in awww. Crazy.
I lost my dad, my sister from another mother, a client and a neighbor I have known my whole life. I lost them in two months.
This year has been a struggle but I am trying to keep my chin up. I'll write again soon.
I am taking my O&M (orientation & mobility) class at the commission for the blind. It's going good. My hope is to get a Guide Dog but we will see how things go. My instructor keeps saying different remarks to me that is starting to get on my nerves. He is funny but sometimes he says stupid remarks about my vision that he shouldn't say because he is sighted and doesn't understand. Saying "Oh you still have functional vision. I am sure your using that but for people that have none...blah blah blah."
I am feeling lost as far as getting a career and I feel everything I try for fails. It really sucks. I want to be a mental health counselor. I want to be able to help people. I have applied to grad school twice. Got denied from both. It sucks.
My ED is going down but I am trying to get better and stay healthy but I am struggling. My friend told me tonight that "Oh she use to be skinny". she was talking to me. She knows I have a ED. I was in awww. Crazy.
I lost my dad, my sister from another mother, a client and a neighbor I have known my whole life. I lost them in two months.
This year has been a struggle but I am trying to keep my chin up. I'll write again soon.
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Hey beautiful,
I know that this year has been beyond crazy and overwhelming with losing so many people that your close to and love dearly. Always remember that they will always be by your side thinking about you and when you are having a bad day and on all those good days. They will be with you in spirit and they love you very much. I know that things WILL get better soon. I am so proud of you for sticking it out so far with the classes at the commission. I know it\'s been difficult for you especially it being so early in the morning. Try not to listen to your instructor. I know that you WILL one day get a guide dog. You are just having to go through some hurdles first to get there. I know it was hard for you being denied for the master\'s program at PSU but please do NOT give up. I KNOW that if you keep at it you WILL get in. You are so smart and confident and good at what you do which is helping people and bringing a smile to their face. I know that in time you will have the career you want. It really sucks hearing inappropriate remarks from close friends that we love and care about but I know that they were having a moment of \"being dumb\" and not really thinking about what they were saying, and was actually hurting that person\'s feelings. So they should really think about what they say before they say things. I want you to know that you are beautiful. Everyone\'s body changes throughout the years especially when they are in relationships and when they get comfortable BUT I know that you can and will get healthy again. I love you for you and not for what size you are, I hope you know that. You are absolutely gorgeous and I feel like I am the luckiest girl in the world to be married to you. Don\'t ever let those sexy curves disappear!!! I love you so much baby. U rock!!