Do you ever feel that life has more to offer? That you are feeling stuck? That you love someone so much but you feel that you are not supporting them the best that you can? These are things that I have been asking myself. I feel so many things right now. I feel that I am stuck in a rut and I am having a hard time getting out.
The holidays were nice. The snow was crazy. It has finally gone away. I am sure it will not be gone for long. The rain has come and here to stay with lots of flooding coming our way. It is sad due to all the problems we will have with slides, flooding and property damage. It saddens with me the economy that way it is and now we will have the storms to deal with now. It is mother nature and you can not fight her. She always has the upper hand.
I did lose my lil boy. Baby Boy (my rat) I miss him like crazy. He was having health problems but they did not bother him. He was in great spirits. He lost the use of his back legs and was falling over due to his neurological problem that caused him to lose his balance and also to lose the use of his back legs. He use to lay in his hammock all day. He enjoyed his carrots, blue berries plus all the rat treats that I would buy for him. He was very spoiled rat. He deserved it.
I start Braille classes this Thursday. I am excited about that. It will be hard but fun. I am up for the challenge and it can only improve and benefit me. If I lose more vision I can use Braille plus when I get a job I will be able to use it to my extent.
Do you ever feel that you have friends, loved ones but you feel so alone inside that you dont know what to do. The sadness takes over you and you keep trying to fight it. Then inside it is just you and you alone. The darkness just lingers and hangs out like it is your best friend. It wont go home or take a day off.
Right now I am having a hard time with the whole weight thing again. I am in my friend Gabbys wedding in April. So things are going crazy in my head right now. Part of me wants to go back to the old ways but I know that I can not do that. Sometimes it feels that old ways are better than new ones. Ya know? I feel like I am dieing inside from weight. It sucks. It is like having an angel on one shoulder and a devil on the other side. So confusing and crazy. Just want to make it go away. I just have to fight it and continue with it I guess.
Life is good but I am so not fully happy right now. I need to try to do something to make me happy or I dont really know right now. Im so dorky. What will I do with myself. Im now needing to analyze myself I guess and figure things out. When life gives you challenges just learn to go with the flow and roll. Enough of my babbling. Lata.
The holidays were nice. The snow was crazy. It has finally gone away. I am sure it will not be gone for long. The rain has come and here to stay with lots of flooding coming our way. It is sad due to all the problems we will have with slides, flooding and property damage. It saddens with me the economy that way it is and now we will have the storms to deal with now. It is mother nature and you can not fight her. She always has the upper hand.
I did lose my lil boy. Baby Boy (my rat) I miss him like crazy. He was having health problems but they did not bother him. He was in great spirits. He lost the use of his back legs and was falling over due to his neurological problem that caused him to lose his balance and also to lose the use of his back legs. He use to lay in his hammock all day. He enjoyed his carrots, blue berries plus all the rat treats that I would buy for him. He was very spoiled rat. He deserved it.
I start Braille classes this Thursday. I am excited about that. It will be hard but fun. I am up for the challenge and it can only improve and benefit me. If I lose more vision I can use Braille plus when I get a job I will be able to use it to my extent.
Do you ever feel that you have friends, loved ones but you feel so alone inside that you dont know what to do. The sadness takes over you and you keep trying to fight it. Then inside it is just you and you alone. The darkness just lingers and hangs out like it is your best friend. It wont go home or take a day off.
Right now I am having a hard time with the whole weight thing again. I am in my friend Gabbys wedding in April. So things are going crazy in my head right now. Part of me wants to go back to the old ways but I know that I can not do that. Sometimes it feels that old ways are better than new ones. Ya know? I feel like I am dieing inside from weight. It sucks. It is like having an angel on one shoulder and a devil on the other side. So confusing and crazy. Just want to make it go away. I just have to fight it and continue with it I guess.
Life is good but I am so not fully happy right now. I need to try to do something to make me happy or I dont really know right now. Im so dorky. What will I do with myself. Im now needing to analyze myself I guess and figure things out. When life gives you challenges just learn to go with the flow and roll. Enough of my babbling. Lata.
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