Today is cloudy and has been raining. Trying to keep my chin up right now. The depression is trying to hit me and come really fast. I hate that feeling. I feel so much is shoved inside me right now and I dont know how to get it out. I just woke up an hour and half ago. I need to eat something but I dont really want to. I feel I am just gonna get fat. I'm already fat. But I know I have to eat. Arrggg. Life sucks. The pro's are my friend Alaina came to visit yesterday and that was awesome. We had good time. I have my sexy partner in crime with me. smiles. I'm having so many flash backs right now. It sucks, Just like a movie it goes over and over and over. Anyway I need to be productive today. Clean the apt. Anyway i'll write more another time.