Hi Honey...
Just had to tell you the longing for you isn't getting any less, only worse. Why did you have to go? Some days I feel so much anger that you left me, even though it was beyond your control and I apologize for that.
I am sure you have seen some of my meltdowns, but strangely, the tears are like a cleansing of the grief I am feeling at that moment. I am sorry if I am upsetting you, and I do want to make you proud
of me and live the life you would want me to have, but it's just so damn hard.
Loving you always..
Jan
Just had to tell you the longing for you isn't getting any less, only worse. Why did you have to go? Some days I feel so much anger that you left me, even though it was beyond your control and I apologize for that.
I am sure you have seen some of my meltdowns, but strangely, the tears are like a cleansing of the grief I am feeling at that moment. I am sorry if I am upsetting you, and I do want to make you proud
of me and live the life you would want me to have, but it's just so damn hard.
Loving you always..
Jan
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Your anger is ok. I think everyone feels that way sooner or later at a person dying. I was also mad at God for while. But He can take it. Cry all you want for they are healing tears. Just remember one day at a time. And I doubt if you are upsetting your Honey, he knows you miss him. He is there with you, he is in your heart forever. Take care of yourself too Jan. He would what you to do that.
Love and prayers
Linda
Thanks Linda, you always say the right thing to me.
Jan