Wow ...pretty good weekend really busy dinner with friend, boat show in Baltimore and Sunday just hanging around. Then Monday hit.I got a letter in the mail from Johns Hopkins Hospital stating they would like to add Martys name on their donor wall.They are having a ceremony in April. I told my mom I just feel like I can't go thru it  emotionally.I went to one at Christmas and it was tough.I don't know what to do.Also I am in the middle of moving and I grabbed a bag. It was all the sympathy cards and reminders and my good -bye love letter to Marty.So I sat down and read it for the first time since I read at his service.It made me sad the rest of the day and night and a little bit today.I feel like I get in these funks and have a hard time pulling out of them. I just had a lot of reminders in one day and it is a bit draining.I usually try to be so positive an live the way Marty would want me to.Celebrating his life everyday but,now and then the sadness sneaks in.