41st post

So I have something new to write about. Not mentioning any names though. Not related to anything online. More or less related to issues offline.
Relationships: I messed up my first relationship big time. It’s actually partly related to the previous post (40th post), but I’m not going into that because my ex from what I’ve heard has been going through boyfriends like they’re pizza slices. And now I will never think of pizza the same way ever again. Thanks me, quit doing me favors. I will say that I lost friends over the breakup and it still comes back to haunt me every now and then. I will also say that you should talk to someone about things before you break up with your loved one. If something’s going on or if you feel you’re not sure about something then you should always talk to someone about it.  There’s no easy way to break up with someone, but at the same time do you really want to burn that bridge? If you don’t love them then at least talk to someone about it. If after that, you still feel the same, then don’t delay in telling your loved ones how you feel. It might suck but at least you’re being honest and not making things worse. Also, don’t go out with someone close to your ex right after the relationship ends. That’s one of the worst things you can do. Does not matter who it is. That’s only fine if the ex is okay with it. And even then that’s an idiotic move to do and you should at least give things two months minimum. You don’t need to be in a relationship all the time and it’ll only make you seem like worse of a person to others if you go through relationships that quickly. If you really want to know where the word, “slut,” comes from well that’s its origin. Another thing, and this is related more to two separate but similar events: If someone does not feel the same way about you and just wants to be friends, then deal with it. You have friends that will support you, but they won’t like listening to you go on and on about someone that you like. That’s annoying and even with the best of friends the patience for that kind of thing is limited. You might wish that person liked you, but after a few months of that then the people you talk to about it will just start ignoring you. Get a grip and shut up about it. It’s pissing people off. We know you like that person but they don’t like you in that way. “There’s plenty of fish in the sea,” and trust me, you’ll find someone else that you like as long as you stop thinking about the person that does not have those feelings for you. Yes it’s hard to deal sometimes but it’s for the best and you’ll be a better person. Do not do the whole “I am waiting on them” thing because guess what? They are most likely not going to have feelings for you in that same way unless you surprise them. And if you can’t surprise them when you’re being yourself, then what are you going to surprise them with? By the way, don’t answer that it’s a rhetorical question. Also, to those that don’t tell the people that like you that you do not like them: quit giving them false hope. That only messes them up. Tell them that you don’t have feelings for them. BE HONEST. Part of the reason why someone still has those feelings for you is because you haven’t told them that you don’t like them that same way. You’re ridiculous. Quit feeding your ego. Another bit of advice, and this is related to previous events not to current events. Trust me on that one this is related to the J and R incident or maybe to be more exact the JJR incident since that stupid J guy (not naming anyone) got involved, but I will say that this is more for J than it is for R: don’t complain about the ending. If you feel hurt then express it in a mature way. Don’t broadcast it to everyone because then that will only make them feel like they have to get involved. Trust me that is a stupid thing to do and only makes things worse. You can make jokes about your ex but don’t go so far as to reveal personal things that were said between you and your ex. Grow up and quit complaining about it. It’s over and done with. If you’re angry about it then ok feel free to vent it out and broadcast it a bit, but never go so far as to reveal personal stuff said between you and your ex unless your ex has already revealed personal stuff about you. I mean, I might not have the best experience with relationships, but I do know for a fact that I love Celsia and that I want to be with her always. I wouldn’t risk losing what I have with her no matter what it is. She’s always been there for me and in return I hope to always be there for her. She’s visiting this Christmas so I’m looking forward to that. Christmas is the one holiday that I’m looking forward to the most now. I don’t know how things will go, but I have a feeling that it will be amazing. I’ve had a rough time this year and she’s been the one that’s helped me out the most. If you’ve read some of my previous posts, you know a tiny bit of the mental state that I was in not only this year but last year as well. Celsia really has helped me through it. I would not risk that for anything. And if she reads this I want her to know that I love her. Trust me on this, you don’t want to ruin things between you and someone else unless you have to.