Day 2:  Yesterday i discovered this site, and left my first post.  I was so excited to see the responses. i couldnt wait to read them, and now all i am doing is sitting here crying. I cried last nite for about an hour after i found this site.  I didnt think about it today at work, and then here i am crying again.  I am sad and releived at the same time. I have been trying to work on this for 14 years now and i finally feel like there is something that can help me.  The counselors stunk (sorry counselors), and the books didnt really make me feel any better, but now i feel i might have a chance.  Or maybe i just wasnt ready but today i feel alot more ready! I just want to be normal, and to not feel like i am crazy!  I feel relieved and scared, but a little less scared today.  And after reading some of the other posts, a little less crazy too! Thanks DS!